Saturday was my 5 year wedding anniversary….
but instead of celebrating it together we spent it apart.
We have been separated now for 5 weeks.
living in SEPARATE houses
sleeping in SEPARATE beds
eating SEPARATE meals
living SEPARATE lives
The sad reality of it is….
I don’t know where we are going….
I don’t know what is going to happen…
I DO know what went wrong…I know what we did to let our marriage slip away
BUT has too much damage been done? Have I been hurt too much? has he been hurt too much?
can we really FORGIVE and FORGET….
I am just not sure. These are just some of the questions that swirl though my head each day
Instead of celebrating 5 years of marriage.
we have spent the last 5 weeks apart
Our kids came into town this weekend for summer break and it broke my heart to not be there with them, to have them not quite understand why we were not a family. Why we were living in separate houses.
I never would have thought that I would be in this position AGAIN.
That I would be heading down this road, that I would be standing here in this spot
If you would have asked me what my life would be like 5 years ago…I wouldn’t have EVER imagined this
but here I am
at a cross road in my life
Alone and scared and feeling really empty
not knowing what my future holds, doing all that I can to just take it day by day