emotions and truths

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I am trying really hard lately to keep a positive attitude
but some days
like Tuesday

I didn’t shower, stayed in my pajamas, watched 2 lifetime movies and laid in bed ALL DAY

I should be happy, and proud of myself for all that I have accomplished….
I have a darling townhouse
my health
a good job
I can pay my bills
great friends
an amazing family

but still…. I can’t help but feel down and pick myself apart, to criticize and see the worst instead of the best. Why is it SO easy to bring ourselves down but not as easy to spring back up? I sit in my house and instead of feeling proud I feel lonely…. Instead of embracing my kitchen and cooking myself a nice dinner – I just skip eating. I should blast music and dance… instead I play a song and cry. Sometimes I have to sit and look at myself in the mirror and say “You are a strong, independent woman, you can do this” and some days I just stare at myself in the mirror and don’t’ even recognize myself.

So today I looked in to mirror and said : “BRITTANY STOP!”

it’s time to STOP the pity party and push myself to be a happier person who smiles more – I want to  laugh and smile everyday! See the good and beauty in life. Go on adventures and soak up all that I can! Life is too short, and as said best by Oscar Wilde…I want to LIVE life not just exist in it.

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to jump start the new positive happy me
I am going repost some truths about myself to help be reminded of the good POSITIVE  things that I admire about myself
{I edited and added to them a bit but you can find the original post HERE}

  • I love to help othersI have often been labeled a “giver” I wasn’t sure if I ever believed that until recently…I like to give in all sorts of ways. a little gift to let someone know I was thinking of them or love them, a quick note of endearment. A treat to make someone smile. Help someone start up their dream, take my nephews to give my cousin a break, get up early to take my friends daughter to dance since they both had to work. I am happy to help anyway I can….
  • I am a total nerd roll your eyes all you want. It’s the truth, but I LOVE it! I may not be a “computer nerd” or a “science nerd” but I am a “goofball nerd”. I am the one singing into the air microphone to my favorite song on the radio, sliding around the house in my socks like tom cruise in that one movie {you know the one}. The nerd that makes funny faces in public just to make someone smile or laugh. The one who randomly starts dancing when I good song comes on, yup the one most people stare or laugh out while driving on the freeway! ha

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  • I have an open heartstrange way to put it huh? I wasn’t sure how else to describe it. I have the ability to take a child and love it as if it were my own. Not everyone can do that. I took my {at the time} husbands three children in and never for one second treated them any different than if they were my own flesh and blood. Some people may not believe that, or question it, or think of it as bad, but I love with all my heart, and have the ability to let anyone into it and give them my whole heart back! And I truly love that about myself. Now that I am not married to their dad it complicates the situation and it breaks my heart to not see them. I still love them with all my heart and don’t think a love like that ever goes away.
  • I am outgoingI love to be around people, I love to interact with people, I am a total people person! I can start up a conversation with complete strangers, walk into a room full of people I don’t know and make friends, I try to SMILE at everyone!! I am a social butterfly just waiting to spread her wings on the next adventure!

  • I love natureI love to be outdoors. something as simple as laying out soaking up some sun  to a week long camping trips! I love to go on horse rides through the trees, to hike up to waterfalls, to adventure up a canyon. anything to do with being outside and nature is right up my alley! I am not afraid to sleep in a tent and shower in a lake, shoot at empty cans into the side of the mountain, to splash through a river barefoot, to off road in a elegant maxi dress :)
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  • I love  LOVE I am a hopeless romantic. I love the feeling of butterflies in my stomach, I want to feel WANTED {Yes like the song}, I love the dumb perma grin smile love gives you, I cry in ever romantic movie, I believe in happily ever afters, I believe that fairy tale marriages aren’t just in the movies, I love to have a full heart, I believe in love, I love to be in LOVE.

what is a positive thing about YOURSELF?

 

Comments

  1. 1

    Britt I love your heart. I admire your strength and know that this will all make sense one day. I promise you! Im here if you ever want to just chat ;)

  2. 2
    baking momma says:

    You are such a strong person Brittany, I can see it with out even knowing you! I love your truths. Something about me is I am daring! I love to try new things

  3. 3
    Julie Snider says:

    love this! everything about it.

  4. 4

    I think we all have days like this. It’s tough to see ourselves in a good light some days even when others do.

  5. 5
    Simply splendid says:

    This really touched me. i teared up, its like you were talking about me! I agree, we can get so down on ourselves and its hard to get back up! Hang in there!

  6. 6

    … I am in tears reading your blog post today. I myself am a goofy, hopeless romantic who loves love and to make other’s happy. I am oober emotional, and often times feel like others don’t get me. I have come to accept that wearing my heart on my sleeve and living life and loving with an open heart, will often times hurt me. But to me, we learn the most from the things that hurt us most. If it hurts when its gone, that means it was worth having in your life at that moment.

    I too have felt lonely, I still do at times. But I love your motto about living life because its true; most people just exist, they do not experience what it is like to feel alive.

    Thank you for sharing, your post is honest and beautiful.

    … Something I love about myself is my my ability to love whole heartedly and to put love towards all that I do. Love is what makes life worth living.

  7. 7

    This is so beautiful and encouraging.

  8. 8

    You ARE AMAZING. I love ya lady! THIS WEEK we are for sure hanging out!!

    MWAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

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